I'm Thankful for my Kids.

I love my kids. We went through some tough years where it was pretty clear that I was the enemy. I honestly think they blamed me for the fact that they were not with their birth families. Now, they know better.

My kids tell me they love me every day in different ways.

Matthew was on his way out the door. He had his back pack stuffed with clothing and such. He was heading out to his buddy's house to spend the night. I jokingly asked him if he was running away. He said, "No, you are the best mom I will ever have" Then he gave me a hug and kiss. That statement knocked me over. It brought a smile to my face and tears in my eyes.

Mary was eating my homemade mac n cheese the other day. She says, "Mom's mac n cheese is the best. I went to a pot luck dinner the other day and I tried four different mac n cheeses and none of them were as good as mom's". That is Mary's highest compliment as food is important to Mary and mac and cheese is probably her favorite food.

Abby asked me the other day if we could start journalling to each other. I promised her I would but of course had to remind the kids of when I tried this in the past and they either ignored my writing or just wrote complaints or lists of things they wanted. (I have a hard time letting go)Then I forgot to start the journal. So, I got a note hidden in my laptop. Abby, pouring her heart out onto paper. What an honor to have a teenage daughter want to share her heart with me. Today I will start the journal.

I was at church Sunday morning and one of the youth leaders asked if my kids could stay to practise for the youth service that is coming up. This meant that I had to drive home without Liz. I know that it is a stupid irrational fear but the concept of driving back to the West Shore without Liz sent a panic through me. Liz insisted on going with me. Eventually, the leader prayed with me and I told Liz to stay. It was good for me to do on my own. But the really amazing part is how Liz did not want to desert me. She would give up her time with the other teens to support me.

I could go on and on but this is the point in this blog entry when the phone rang and my life started spiraling out of control. That is the way my life goes. I still have much to do and I am trying to stay off of the computer so back to work.....

But I do love my kids!!